I use alcohol to numb the intense feelings i have towards circumcision. It does make things feel so much better for a long while, but the feeling never lasts forever. Its always a fleeting happiness. I dont know if there is anything on earth that can make me whole again.

My drinking has become a serious problem in the last few years. I really dont know when to stop and ive tried quitting before to no avail.

Anyone else dealing with this trauma via drinking heavily? I know i cant be alone in that

I don't drink because I know how badly it damages the body. My methods of escaping reality are mainly the internet, gaming, and social media. But even those come at a cost. I've wasted hours of my life doom scrolling and being a lazy neet.