Well hiya! I'm Sylphy.  I'm a member of the furry fandom with an online furry person (or fursona) of that of a fairy-winged black footed ferret.  I've been aware of what I've been missing from the ripe old age of 11 when I trauma-nuked myself after discovering what a foreskin was and the subsequent research rabbit hole I tossed myself down after viewing lewd art featuring a humanoid pokemon with an intact foreskin.  One thing led to another and I fell upon a rather crass but ultimately truthful recanting of what circumcision was through a now defunct parody wikipedia clone named Encyclopedia Dramatica.  

Upon learning all I could, I did something worse and viewed a video on YouTube of the procedure being carried out.  With the burden of knowledge already weighing down on me, watching that video was one step too far.  In my already emotionally and mental fragile state upon learning I was mutilated, that video... those screams.... watching that defenseless infant writhe and wail as nobody stepped in to help.... It shattered me in both mind, spirit, and soul.  For better or worse those scant few days of innocent research scarred me for life and left me with CPTSD when later developed into three separate attempts on my life at the age of 13, 14, and 16. 

At one point during those attempts I ended up institutionalized and while under said supervision, nobody there would ever take my grief seriously. They ascribed my suicidal tendencies to the likes of school pressure or family issues despite my own admission that circumcision trauma was the reason for my attempts on my life.

It was then I realized that nobody was going to help me. My cries for help would remain unanswered in this cutting culture, and if I want to reclaim my internal peace, I would have to reclaim it, fighting tooth and claw with a lengthy and thorough 10 years of off-and on progress culminating in my current CI of an indeterminate 6-to-7.

Simply put, my circumcision was fucked up in ways that manual tension based restoration could not fix alone.  If anything, my ongoing restoration and subsequent elongation of my remaining foreskin highlighted just how badly made my initial cut was.  A lopsided and uneven cut resulting in an egregious v-shaped  scar running along the underside of my ventral skin  that gave it this terrible degloved look as well as the frustrating anatomical complication that so much inner skin was removed at the pit of the v-shaped scar that where my scar ended and my outer skin existed was a blur.  This complication above all else has persisted through my restoration.  While other areas of my outer skin have grown to accommodate my restoration, the problem points have seen very little growth in terms of "true" outer skin, the bulk of the result down there being Turkey Neck due to a lack of available tissue. 

In addition, another frustrating aspect of my restorative efforts has been my frayed scar tissue.  A problem with my dorsal facing circumcision scar, while it was cut more evenly and resembled that of a typical circumcision result; it was instead plagued with an uneven and loose bundle of scar tissue that made tugging at the vaunted Point of Equilibrium impossible due to said scar tissue jostling any tugger gripper worn using typical POE scar migration techniques completely loose due to the frayed tissue around the scar line being so dissimilar to other areas that it couldn't be compatible with any restoration device.  This in turn led me to adapting to my anatomy by folding my usable outer skin ontop of my circumcision scar to effectively mask the scar with usable skin and tuck the scar inside my skin tube.  

While this worked, it was not without it's own problems; namely the tucked scar tissue raised my skin and made it considerably thicker than my ventral underside. This discrepancy would in turn cause gripper slippage due to uneven grip being afforded to my ventral side combined with the inherent tension being passively applied due to the uneven scar pattern on my ventral skin causing a graduating tension scale that reached it's apex at the pit of my V-scar which gave a pulling sensation like my ventral skin was being pulled out from underneath the gripper by it's own counter-tension, causing my slippage to be a constant and nagging annoyance from the start at CI-3 all the way to my current CI-7.

In light of all of these issues. Is it any wonder why I'd seek out surgical corrections to make myself feel truly whole? When throughout my entire restoring journey I was faced with constant reminders from my own body about just how maimed and mutilated I was..

Thankfully someone with much better connections and disposable income was able to share their knowledge and experience.  It was received so well it even had a news magazine article written about it.  None other than Dr. Sven Gunther.  In his pilot case, he treated a patient that plateaued around CI 4 to 5 and was able to convincingly bring said patient to CI 8 with incredibly respectable results that looked indistinguishable from someone who would've restored in a more natural manner.  Upon hearing this revelation from the patient sharing their testimony on the Foreskin_Restoration subreddit, Sven soon found himself inundated with calls requesting to be booked for an appointment or to find out more about the procedure its self.  It took some talking around, asking other patients, and a GoFundMe campaign, but I was finally able to afford and book an appointment with Dr. Sven Gunther for an in person consultation at the Berlingame location.

July 6th 2026 - In person consultation with Dr. Sven Gunther to address longstanding circumcision complications and formulate a surgery plan to let me reclaim my body image and feel "truly whole" once again.

Any support via gofundme would be deeply appreciated to lessen the fiancial burden of this journey.