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Tired of being tired - token - 06-09-2026
One aspect of trying to navigate this trauma that's not really discussed in depth yet deserves more recognition is the general state of tiresome I find myself in on a constant basis. I've been depressed about this since the day I found out about it, which was years ago. I don't know if anyone else can relate to what I'm about to say, but parts of my brain feel dead. Like, I can literally feel my brain inactive in certain areas. It's such a weird but very real feeling. I know parts of your brain basically die when you suffer from chronic depression as I have, and I'm no biologist/scientist, but what if those dead sections can never come back to life?
That's something I really fear. That I've been depressed for years straight and that the literal biology and structure of my brain has entered a state of no return. Honestly that's how it feels on so many days. I'm in this constant trauma-induced brain fog state where I have this general "lost" feeling where I'm not sure what I'm doing or what's happening around me. That sounds like textbook dissociation, right? I've definitely dissociated hundreds of times before to escape the pain of this trauma.
I just wish society would stop doing this to children and that my voice could finally be heard. I just want a voice. But I can't even have that.