Am I the only one who their experience with circumcision has made homicidal? Everyone always talks about suicide and hurting themselves, but what about hurting others? Ever since I found out what happened to me, I wanted to kill the doctor that did this to me because I knew instantly that this level of evil needs punishing of the greatest magnitude: death. 

I live most days in fantasy land - inside my head. At first, I wanted to only kill the doctor that butchered me. Then, I wanted to kill pedos, rapists, etc. Now, after nearly 20 years since my initial desire to end a human life, it doesn't even matter who my victim is anymore. Seems like I've gone so long without quenching that thirst and suffering alone in silence that anyone has become a target. I simply dont like humanity and dont want to be a part of it. I feel like an alien on my own private isolated island.

I know I cant be alone in these thoughts... am I? Nobody ever discusses homicide ideation. So yeah, I'm a homicidal wreck and it only seems to be getting worse as I age. I just want to hurt people. You know the saying: hurt people hurt people. And I dont use that as an excuse, Im simply highlighting that that statement holds real merit and truth to it.